I didn't realize that this week was a No-Webinar-Week until I tried to get on... Which was great! the reading was Thoreau and to be honest I haven't figured it out yet. I have had a lot of things to think about and catch up on and in doing so I finally understood / felt NARC! I think?
I have been pondering on "THE ONE THING" that will fuel my emotions to change the old blue - print and get me to the next level and I have been doing some weeding out of unnecessary things and feeling miserable. Well I decided that when I finished my regular drill (getting my work done, reading, sit, 3 gratitude's, positive journal experience sentence, service, exercise) I decided to reward myself. The one thing I really love and have been grumpy w/o has been movies. I would own a movie theater if my wife would let me but she knows I would never leave... so anyway I allowed myself to watch a movie this week and I have felt great. I was so excited to watch that I had a great time doing the requirements now am starting to love, and spend more time w/ those requirements because I want to - they have become habit but are now so much more than a chore - and the reward of watching a movie now and then has been WONDERFUL! I'm happier, less stressed, and am more excited about doing the things that fuel my DMP.
I have also overcome some of the guilt / uneasy feelings I've had about wanting money... I finally found a way to go after my DMP goal w/o compromising any personal values or standards and that has also relieved me of anxiety. Og was right, I make my own weather. I can be the master of my emotions and now having a clear and defined road knowing that it is the right one for me has made all the difference. I feel good, I feel great, I feel wonderful...
4 comments:
What a great story of using a small reward to keep you on track and enthusiastic!
Hi Scott,
Part of the process is being gentle with ourselves. Thanks for modelling that for us so well.
As a result your DMP became even more sacred and empowered.
Thanks for your sharing.
Ryf.
Great post, Scott. We all need a reward now and then!
Scott, your post shows that you are becoming self-directed. I salute you! Emerson's essay on Self Reliance requires a very careful read. I've been though it about four times...
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