Week 13 Extra, Extra, Read all about it.

Wow, something amazing just happened and I felt compelled to write it down. I had mentioned that I had been blocked out of the site for some odd reason and I wasn't able to view the webcast until Saturday night and Holy Cow... Mark was right on... He said that this is one of the hardest weeks and most people usually skimp on their assignments and justify it - allowing the old blueprint to take over again and it's true.  I watched a few T.V. shows, didn't make it to the gym, ate too many treats...  I diligently did my reading every night but not with enthusiasm... I looked at my cards but w/o conviction, I was going through the motions but not internalizing it and when he talked about NARC (Neurological Associative Reactive Conditioning) and explained how we need to find something that causes real pain... BOOM!   not fulfilling your measure of my creation - Boy I felt that!  I was so ashamed that I had literally put my dreams in the trash, let myself, my family and my God down that I never want to feel that way again.  Although it was a painful experience, I felt blessed for having that stark realization and grateful to be kicked in the head to get back to my definiteness of purpose.  I am not involved in Network marketing so my traction point isn't calling people but rather building a Christ-like person within myself.  The million dollar door I need to go through is right in front of me and I am turning the handle.
Thank you God for helping me see what I can really be and how to get there.